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Hi, has long since we talked, I have not forgotten you. Instead, I have been meaning to write, but I lack courage. Well, today I was sitting here in front of the TV as usual and for some moments I was not there anymore, has turned around, while my body remained there. I traveled to a far distant place and at the same time close to that reality we do not ask me how because it would not have the exact answer and not why this trip.

I have to tell you what happens to me. I have the need to tell you of my feelings, my fears, of my joys, my fears and of my smiles. I miss you I know, we lost ourselves before our mistakes. Left with the company of each other to vent. At least that.

Today I come to ask for help, but help. I do not know what happens, I get lost out there (or will I find?) At the moment I do not know. I walk around doing what comes to the head, not exactly. For if I still have rationality, this is not to harm others by my actions.It's like I'm breaking free, by following my instincts, living for pleasure. But at the same time I feel a run away from trouble. I do what I'm doing to fill the void that left me. I do not think it's a phase. Ie. But I wonder "what if this phase lasts a lifetime?" I'll be creating another personality, building a new identity, I never was or what I always wanted to be? Understand me? I would appreciate your answers every time you write.Make eye contact, I need you. If you do not need me okay, I admire him for that. I wish I had the power to understand, to find myself alone. I thought we could be friends, and sometimes each other psychologists. Not a good idea?

And you? Miss me? You are living your life like me, running away, hiding, trying to find it or still using all that enviable wisdom and rationality? I hope you're happy where you are and with whom. Really.

For too long you wanted, you wanted, and I waited. I do not know what fell on me and I realized it was all in my head forming an image of you unreal. I confess that after that day I thought maybe things would change, do not know but it was all so beautiful. But today, on this trip, I realized it was a farewell and you made that moment special, I felt.Do not know if I thank you or hate you for leaving me so. Perhaps all that is happening is a little fault of his. Yes, you. You threw it on me by force, I thought I was prepared to endure all this angst. No! I was not, you could not have done it, oh I do not even know if it should ... You had your reasons and I respect. But now is a few seconds can forget what happened or maybe remember and stand beside me and help me find it? Give me the answer.

For now I'm still here, doing everything I'm doing, this is making me happy, I know new thrills. And if I must die to rise and go another way, I promise it will help me? I'm insecure. This is evident not it? But if I have to follow where I'm going to go and a new path for life? I do not know the way, if I come to help me lose? When available to answer my questions. Meanwhile I will follow (and maybe I'll wait or find ourselves out there) Kisses. Miss you. Congratulations to both of us.